15 May 2012

I just had one of the sweetest day =D. Thank you. I was really scared because like last night, it sounded like you were upset at me that I was completely different around you. I know it was childish of me. I was scared honestly, I tried so hard to fight against it near the end of badminton night. I tried like making jokes and laugh with you. Because normally I would’ve just like stayed “cold shoulder” towards you because that’s how she treated me before. I know it’s completely unfair to you. But I’m working so hard to change myself for the better. 

You asked me why I said, “I’ll tell you later”. Lol you’re really smart. because what I said indicated that there was something, and you read me like a book lol. I didn’t want to tell you because there was one variable missing that you didn’t calculate for. And that was me falling for you =]. That would explain everything, like why I treated you like that and why I’m afraid of people saying stuff about us. But you’re so awesome. When I asked you, “aren’t you afraid what people might say about us?” ANd you just said you didn’t care as long as we know what the situation is.

You really make me wonder when you say things like, “you’re the first person that ever gotten so close to me.” or “I never let anyone let them buy me things.” etc etc.. And how I’m special to you. I”m not sure if those are hints or if you’re just really honest.. But then you also say things like you don’t want anyone until after college.. But you secure it with “whatever is yours is yours. it’ll come back to you eventually.” And I think I start to believe that as well.

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Onwards with my day, I got up and then ate like nothing to pick you up and go to superstore to buy your mother’s day shopping list for food items, it was really cute how we walked together. like the way you look at me.. makes me just so vulnerable.. I’m not sure if you feel it or not.. but your eye contact makes me weak inside.. in a good way..

Then afterwards headed home and on the way picked up lindsay from school. and she got to play with B for a bit before we had to leave for our movie. It was so planned out though.. Like we only had 10 minutes before the movie started and we just got there right in time. And Avengers was amazing.. so nice of you to watch it twice with me =).. And like so surprised you kept with your promise and your mom let you go =). and when we walked in the theatre, it like perfectly started the trailers on time lol.

After the movie went back to her place and she made me breakfast meal lol two runny eggs with 2 pieces of toast. it was super cute! we had some bananas and strawberries and then dropped off her off at work at exactly 5pm. when her shift started.. lol it felt like everything was so planed out.

She kept true to her promise and that means a lot to me. Thanks so much for the beautiful day =). I feel like I’m healed

20 April 2012
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=) 

I guess I never saw it coming, I was in my zone
Being on my own but never single and alone
I was so convinced I would never love again
A hopeless romantic at a dead end

I dated different girls but I knew it wasn’t fair
Cause I’d put them beside you and see how they compare
I’d bring myself to do it but I wouldn’t follow through
Cause when you went away, my heart followed you

You left me with some baggages I couldn’t unpack
Now it’s hard for me to love somebody else and trust back
I even thought maybe I should move outta town
Far from everything that drags me down

But it’s all the same, no matter where I go
My life was like a re-run, the show was getting old
But right before everything fell and hit the ground
I met a girl that flipped me upside down

She made it easier to love
She’s the reason why I left my past in the dust
So long love, you ain’t gotta worry ‘bout me
I’m ready to let you be and let you free

She made it easier to go
She’s the reason why that I finally got control
So long love, she has something that was never in you
I finally found a girl that’s better than you

Instead of piecing it together
I finally found a girl that made me sleep a little better
She know me so well as if she read through all the letters of my heart
I kept it locked up but I guess I’ve been robbed

You took a part of me and you never gave it back
But now I found somebody that’ll fill the missing half
When she came around, she brought along “hope”
And my heart that followed you came back home

Im giving her my trust, I ain’t scared of being hurt
Cause what she does for me is speaking louder than her words
And even though the past ain’t erased
She’s the one that takes it all away
She’s my escape

She gives me reasons to believe again
I ain’t thinkin about the “woulda”, “coulda”, “might of been’s”
‘cause when you left I lost myself in the past
But I met a girl that brought me back.

14 April 2012

Today, was the last day of finals for me. I had 4 exams in 3 days. I only had half the night yes, half because I had an exam from 6pm-9pm the night before and I hand another 9am today. So I stayed up all night. Didnt study much but yea the idea was there lol.

Anyway, on my way to school it was raining, it didn’t cross my mind until the radio started to play the song. Oh yes, it was the stupid song. And memories just flashed. It’s been nearly year, I weeped on my way to my final.

I thought about how and why did I even put so much of my heart into it? It was a given that you were going to hurt me. I knew it from before, but I still tried anyway. Don’t get me wrong, I would do the same if I was given the same opportunity at that same time of my life. I don’t regret anything I’ve done. It would’ve have made me the person I am today.

I heard recently from some random person that you got hurt recently. And my heart just sank. I dont know why? I mean like, I haven’t talked to you in ages, and yet why did I care how you feel right? Plus our time together wasn’t long and it wasnt deep? So why do I feel like this?

A year ago today, I was in love with you. I gave my heart out to you. Oh May I missed you.. =( I hope he treats you well and cared for you genuinely. He must be very lucky. why did it have to rain now, the moment when I’m thinking of you?

The problems is I’m awake after a combined of 5 hours of sleep after the past 3 days. I should be passed out until the very next morning. I have nothing to worry about, my finals are done. I don’t think it has anything to do with you. Or maybe I’m not sure. It’s just I can’t sleep.

ayedayy:

mynamesdiana:

LMFAO

lollllll

19 March 2012

Dreamed about her again. Were were in the gymnasium and I asked her if we could be friends and she replied with no. She said that I hurt her too much. In the back of my mine I knew she was lying. And for some reason, I let it bother me all day. I woke up so hurt. How did I hurt you? It doesn’t even make sense right? I was the one that was broken for the longest time and you moved on with another dude apparently.

I wonder if there is a point of even blogging about you. I just hate it how I would have a perfectly fine day and you would just have to show up. Just go away already. I’m working so hard to move on.

zigggzzz:

PUT IT ON EVERYTHING!

kuhrissay:

Don’t stop chasing.

I think that one of the biggest reason why relationships do not work out in the long run is because at one point, one side (or both) stops trying. Before one claims another person as their significant other, they would do anything to make that person happy. They would chase, they would flirt, they would be charming. They would send daily morning and goodnight texts every time you wake up or go to sleep. They would write corny messages and pick up lines just to make sure that there is a smile upon your face. But once they claim you as theirs, all of those things eventually stop. The 5 page texts slowly turn into 1. The constant calls turn into not calling at all. And the lovely endearments turn into daily arguments. In order for a relationship to work, don’t ever stop chasing. Just because the person you want is now consider “yours”, it does not mean they deserve anything less than the time when you’re trying to win them over.

1112am:

dianasauruss:

When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class 
and had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous ‘yes.’

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

‘Now,’ said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
‘I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - family,
children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions –
Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else —The small stuff.

‘If you put the sand into the jar first,’ He continued,
there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So…

Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play With your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.

‘Take care of the golf balls first —
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled
‘I’m glad you asked’.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
There’s always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.’

♥

amazing

coracolour:

pamelephant:

Religious kid: “They don’t really know that, though.”

Me, sighing: “Okay.”

Science > everything

Lol Cora!!

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